Sunday, March 3, 2013

It's my (pity) party and I'll cry if I want to.

Do you ever just feel like you want to cry? And you just can't?  That's how I've been feeling today.  I am discouraged.  After staying away from the scale for a week, I had this grand delusion that it was going to say less than 230 (last weight had been 232.9). In reality, it was 235 :-(  Perhaps a combination of PMS and muscle-building, but disappointing anyway.  And my inches aren't "melting away" rapidly either.  I feel stuck again.

And speaking of PMS: can I blame that for the fact that I want to eat EVERYTHING I can think of?? Today alone I have craved Grotto's Pizza, Middleford Deli subs, Subway subs, Saladworks, Five Guys, and Chinese.  I mean, luckily I didn't give in to all that, but we did go to the Chinese Buffet for lunch, and whilst (what an English word, I love it) I feel like I made good decisions (soup, lots of protein and veggies), I still feel like I ate too much and I feel like crap for it now.  And I have to go exercise in an hour!!

I tried to back out of exercising tonight. Somehow I guilted myself back into going.  Is that where I am now? I can't miss a workout without feeling guilty??  That sucks.

My belly may be getting smaller.  My hips are getting smaller.  My thighs look amazing.  But you know what's still big? MY FEET!!! I went shoe-shopping today for new gym shoes.  Kind of tough to find size 12 wide at the mall.  And mens shoes just look so... manly!  Is it too much to ask for supportive, comfortable, feminine sneakers, preferably with some sort of pink in them, in a larger size??  I hate the shoe shopping experience.  If I even work up the nerve to ask the salesperson that I need a 12 wide, he/she typically sucks in the air between their teeth, and says "Umm... I can go look." And undoubtedly, that go in the back, laugh and tell their co-workers about the big-footed behemoth in the store, and then come back with a size 11 for me to try instead.  If I'm that lucky.  Today the salesman simply said "Oh, we don't have them that big.  What other colors do you like, so maybe we can look at mens?" I don't WANT MENS shoes!!! So needless to say, I came home with no shoes. Thus triggering the feeling that I WANT to cry, and it just won't come out.

While we're at it, let's talk about my ginormous noggin too.  Don't they make headbands for big-headed people??  I put a headband on, and slowly, it slides to the top of my head, where it finally POPS up off my head! I have to pin it to my head with like 4 bobby pins.  Thus defeating the purpose of wearing a headband in the first place.

And with that... it's time to begrudgingly put my gym clothes on. Let's do this.

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Leading by Example

Warning: I am pretty ADD today and this post is all over the place.

I started going to an exercise class last Sunday evening, led by a local Body by Vi champion and promoter, Suzanne.  I LOVED IT! Suzanne is a real person, just like me! With body issues and gets out of breath and loses track of the exercise sometimes! (Sorry Suzanne if you are reading this). But that's what made it REALISTIC and DO-ABLE! I like my gym, and I like the trainers, but sometimes I feel like they have always been skinny/buff and don't know what it's like to struggle. I'm such a fan-girl of Suzanne's right now.

Thursday I got on the scale for one last peek.  This week's challenge is to put the scale away for the week.  So far so good.  But anyway, in that peek, here's what I saw:
Plateau is officially BROKEN!  Under 235! Yeah baby!  I haven't been this light since before my wedding almost 5 years ago!  Through Weight Watchers and Curves, I may have briefly flirted with the upper 220's, but not long enough to make it worth celebrating.  I want to get on that scale next Thursday morning and see 229!  (But anything lower than 232.9 is okay too).  Seeing this weight made me feel skinny, so I asked Paul if he could take a couple quick pictures.  I made a side-by-side and publicly posted it on Facebook, and I got over 30 likes! There is about 15 pounds difference in these picture.

 A (distant) family member signed up for the Challenge under me on Saturday, and I just saw that another FB friend has just taken the Challenge too (though under someone else).  It's so exciting to inspire people!  And it feels so good to be praised for my hard work. I finally feel like I'm putting in the time, and it's paying off.

I get so caught up in the challenge, and the fact that I am losing slower than I would like, I lose track of the important details.  Like the fact that I can now wear a size 16 misses (not plus!) and the fact that I have lost 15!!! pounds!  Have you ever lifted a 15 pound dumbbell??  It's a lot!  I do believe that by losing at the slow rate that I am, that I stand a better chance of keeping it off!

Why is a 16 misses different from a 16 plus?  Why can't it all just be the same??

Just made No-Pudge Fudge Brownies  (for Paul more than me), no bake energy bites, and I have chicken thawing to grill up later.  CLEANED UP at BJ's today, got lots of seafood, stuffed chicken breasts, and frozen fruits and veggies, plus a couple of types of snacks. Perhaps I'll post on these later.

Working out on a Sunday night is kind of weird to me, I feel like Sunday is a day to relax and make a big dinner.  But I also want to make a good start to the week so I am going! But first... maybe a nap.  Must the sound of the Daytona 500 in the background.  Guaranteed to put my Dad to sleep every time. lol. bye!

Monday, February 18, 2013

This is your life on Visalus

This past September, I was watching what I ate (sort of) and going to the gym (occasionally and half-heartedly). I was frustrated because my weight wasn't changing. I weighed about 247 pounds at the time. Friends and co-workers kept telling me "you're not that big, you don't need to lose that much." But how could I believe that when the scale reads 247, and I was unhappy with my body?  I am tall, and I have a wide frame, but I could still stand to lose weight. My goal was just 220 at the time.

A friend of mine was using some sort of shake to lose weight, but I was skeptical. I like to EAT! I could never be satisfied drinking my meals.  I've done Slim Fast before. For a day. And pigged out for dinner. I couldn't do it.

But... I was desperate. I needed to do something if I was going to be happy. So I ordered the shakes. Visalus shakes. (Pronounced Vy-sal-us, not viss-a-liss, like I like to say). And I studied all the literature that I was given with them. I planned my meals (which I already did, but now they were a little different). And I started drinking the shakes, on a Sunday morning. And they were good.  That first day I did not eat nearly enough, but I think I recognized it, and figured there would be a learning curve, and there was.  

During my first challenge, I went through Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years.  It was rough.  The entire month of December I half-assed it. And at the end of it all, I had lost 12 pounds.  Not bad for me.

I started my second challenge in January. And restarted it again in February. And finally. FINALLY. Something has clicked in my brain, and I am ready to change my life!! I am exercising regularly! I am taking Body Pump classes and I even went to an exercise class last night hosted by a local Visalus champion (and regular person!) Suzanne.  I thought that Body Pump hurt all my muscles, but Suzanne found some that Body Pump apparently misses, and I am sore this morning, and I love it! I'm planning out my meals for the week to not only be nutritious, but also simple. I love to cook, but I am letting myself finally know that meals don't have to be complicated every single night! I am prepping a week's worth of snacks on the weekends so I can simply grab and go. And I am succeeding!

I am not trying to sell you a product.  I am trying to sell you on a new way of life. A way that is working for me. I've done Weight Watchers, and Curves, and South Beach, and Sonoma, and the Dr Oz YOU! diet, and a lot of things in First and Women's Day magazines. A lot of gimmicks. If you are ready to change your life, contact me, or visit my site: You won't be sorry.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Pancake Tuesday

Happy Mardi Gras! AKA Shrove Tuesday! AKA... pancake Tuesday???  I am not Catholic, or really religious at all, but all I know is the night before Lent, a lot of churches serve pancake dinners.  Seems like a good enough reason for me.  So we had pancakes and ham steak and scrambled eggs for dinner tonight. And I don't feel guilty whatsoever.  I have had another AMAZING day.  It's true what they say, it's one day at a time.  All I can concentrate on is the here and now, and it feels so good, it makes me want to keep going. I possibly didn't eat ENOUGH today, but work was crazy today, and I didn't get my lunch break until 12:45 (after going in at 7!), and my morning just got away from me and I didn't have much of a morning snack.  To see my full day click here (I made it public so you can see it!)

The next two days are a bit crazy as far as getting back to the gym, I have a hair appt tomorrow night after work, and Thursday we take the dog to the vet (just to get one more shot). So we may not make it back until Friday evening, and I am good on saying "Aw, but it's Friday, I just want to relax." Got to not do that!!!

Monday, February 11, 2013

Counting Calories

I  have tried to log every single thing I have eaten today.  I did stay under my calorie limit, which I set at 1,800 a day for me.  According to, if I eat 1800 calories a day, plus burn approx 900 calories a week, I can lose 1.9 pounds a week. That works for me.  I was going to try 1500 a day, and I just felt too restricted. 1800 is more comfortable for me right now.

So here is what I did eat today

As an expert dieter, I know that foods like almonds and avocados are high in calories but full of good-for-you fats, but they seemed to eat away too much of my calorie budget. I think tomorrow I will try to eat perhaps only half of the almonds, and there is no avocado in tomorrow's plan.

I took Body Pump on Saturday morning with my husband.  This is the second time we've done it, and I remembered that I LOVE it! I hope to make it back to that class more often, I can really feel it, in a good way.

 I ran into a Visalus friend in the locker room after class, and she snapped this pic of me:

and I don't like to be vain, but I LOVE this pic.  I look skinny here! This is the first pic of myself that I have looked at and said "Wow, I like this one!"  I feel motivated to keep moving forward! I love this feeling and I hope it stays this way!

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Southwest Quinoa Salad

I discovered Southwest Bean Salad last summer on I made it for several cook-outs and it was a hit.  I recently discovered quinoa, and wanted to find a way to eat it cold.  I didn't really like any of the recipes I came up with on Pinterest, so I modified the beloved bean salad to suit my needs, and it is great!

Food blogger I am not, so pardon the crappy photo and the un-printable recipe.

The original recipe for the Southwest Black Bean Salad can be found here:

Southwest Quinoa Salad

adapted from

1/2 cup quinoa, dry
1 15.5 oz can black beans, rinsed and drained
1.5 cups frozen corn, thawed
1 cup cherry or grape tomatoes, quartered
1/4 cup red onion, chopped
1 scallion, chopped
1 lime, juice of
3 tbsp extra virgin olive oil
1 tbsp freeze-dried cilantro
salt and pepper to taste
optional: one avocado, diced

Rinse or soak quinoa, and prepare according to package directions (usually 1 part quinoa to 2 parts water, bring to a boil, cover and simmer for about 15 minutes). When cooked, let cool, or rinse with cold water in a fine mesh strainer to cool.

Combine all the above ingredients and mix well. Let sit in fridge at least a half hour.

If serving the same day, you could add 1 avocado, diced, just before serving and toss.  I made mine to eat through the week so I skipped the avocado.  

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Aerosmith said... Back in the saddle again

Today has been a good day.  So was yesterday.  Monday was bad.  We got stuck home all day Monday with Frankenstorm, and all we did all day (it seems) was eat!  I made homemade chicken soup (good) and pigs in blankets (bad). Yesterday I ended up going to work for 4 hours, and so I didn't take a lunch break, just drank my shake while treating patients.  Today was ON POINT!  Started my day with a warm coffee shake, which I found that I wasn't very fond of, but anyway... had my protein snacks, a small portion of the leftover soup with my lunch shake, had a GREAT workout tonight, and homemade Asian chicken salad for dinner.  It was a good day, as Dr Dre says.

I decided to mix up my workout tonight.  Usually on a weeknight, I will do 30-45 minutes on the elliptical and call it good enough.  Tonight, we went into a small workout room that they have, and I did mountain-climbers, high knees, a few burpees, sit-ups on the ball, squats and tossing a 12-pound medicine ball, jumping jacks, pretend jump-rope... and probably more that I can't remember right now.  ooh, and 2 wall sits! 36 seconds and 46 seconds, respectively!  Finished up with just 15 minutes on the elliptical, and it was torturous!  My thighs, just above my knees, are so SORE, and I probably won't be able to lift my arms tomorrow, but it feels so good to be back in my game.

That is all. :-)